Lord, I offer my life to You

2 Chronicles 20:12
You're our God. Won't you judge them? We don't have the strength to face this large crowd that is attacking us. We don't know what to do, so we're looking to you.

What are we to do when faced with adversity. Do we not only have You, O Lord. Forgive me God, for times that I have been faithless. But Lord, You have never failed me. How You have led me through every wilderness. What are these to You? You are bigger than all these things. We are more than conquerors in the name of Jesus Christ.

Take all of me Lord. For I do not know what to do, but my eyes are on You. Come deliver.

old ways

I am returning to my old way of gathering thoughts:

-diary writing.

ciao

Psalm 42

1 As the deer pants for streams of water,

so my soul pants for you, O God.

2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.

When can I go and meet with God?

3 My tears have been my food

day and night,

while men say to me all day long,

"Where is your God?"

4 These things I remember

as I pour out my soul:

how I used to go with the multitude,

leading the procession to the house of God,

with shouts of joy and thanksgiving

among the festive throng.

5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God,

for I will yet praise him,

my Savior and 6 my God.

My soul is downcast within me;

therefore I will remember you

from the land of the Jordan,

the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.

7 Deep calls to deep

in the roar of your waterfalls;

all your waves and breakers

have swept over me.

8 By day the LORD directs his love,

at night his song is with me—

a prayer to the God of my life.

9 I say to God my Rock,

"Why have you forgotten me?

Why must I go about mourning,

oppressed by the enemy?"

10 My bones suffer mortal agony

as my foes taunt me,

saying to me all day long,

"Where is your God?"

11 Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God,

for I will yet praise him,

my Savior and my God.

The endurance race

I've to keep this short so my phone's batt life can last me till night time. :) just completed my morning swim. Its the best time of the day to hit the pool 'cuz its finally not raining! Yea!

As i swam, i though about what i read last night for my bible reading time.

2 Tim 2

If an athlete runs in a race, he runs according to the rules so he will not be disqualified. There you should run in such a way that you might obtain the prize.

And i was thinking while i did my breastsrokes.

Many of us run in our own manner in God's race.

We do what we want. We take up jobs that WE want to do. We say things that WE want to say. We live life the way WE want to live.

How are we ever going to reach the end point and obtain the prize if we dont run in God's manner.

Just a thought:

Are you running by God's rules or by your own's?

Have you sought the Lord for direction?

Have you read what the bible says about a holy life? About pursuing righteousness faith hope love and peace?

On a rainy day

You'd think of

1. Chicken Soup
2. Blankets
3. Hot chocolate
4. A fireplace
5. Snow
6. Soft Christmas music
7. Big fluffy cushions
8. Weddings
9. Horses
10. A nice book
11. Applemon muffins baking
12. Roast chicken
13. Love 

I am in the NIE library now. I have been here since 12noon. And its such a joy to sit here because I finally get to work next to a large window. I love large windows. Did I ever tell you that? I love those walls that are actually windows. I would so want that in my house next time. And its raining outside. And I am just watching the rain from where I am sitting and its just so beautiful. Its like I'm christmasing. 

Far away there's this huge green field with trees on it. And the clouds are all low lying. It makes me feel like running into the plain and riding a horse in the cold wind, laughing away. And then falling down unto the wet grass and landing with a dirty squish. Enjoying the wet grass beneath me. 

I wanna run on the fields with no shoes and just be happy. 

I love rainy days.

Random thoughts for the 16th of the month

Its the weekend for me. No more classes tmr. But I've promised myself to be a good girl, and shall spend my day tmr completing my e-learning lectures. Apparently there's 5 assignments to complete online. BAH!

1. My birthday is in a month and ten days time.
2. When u're older you dont really see the need of celebrating your birthday. Remembering is sweeter :)
3. Not everyone who uses the public toilet has earphones on.
4. I should start considering bringing mini bottles of perfume out.
5. How old or needy is old and needy enough for me to give up my seat?
6. The best answer to point 5 is to pray and ask the Holy Spirit to convict your heart. (works all the time)
7. I should invest in mini christian bookmarks or tiny giveaways so that in the occasion of me preaching in the streets, they come in handy.
8. Am on my way to buy them now.
9. This year's grape season (August-October) isnt all that spectacular.
10. Grammar class, though technical, is surprisingly interesting and thought-provoking.
11. I can smell the grapes I just bought.
12. Going out without makeup makes me feel liberated. Like, "So what if I have scary looking eye rings? I live for Jesus!" Haha.
13. But people who know me know that it is still crazily important to me that one be sharp, presentable and good-looking at appropriate moments.
14. At the rate I'm staring at my phone, I wouldnt see anyone I can give up my seat for.
15. If life were a musical, I'd sing really cool jumpy songs and take every chance to grab a nearby pillar to do some stunt.
16. I should come up with some wishlist for my birthday.

There. 16 thoughts for the 16th. I'm getting off the train now to meet civilisation. Till then. I love you! Yay! Hahahahaha.

好勇敢

"天天想你天天问自己,到什么时候才能告诉你"

My thoughts caught me during ICT class yesterday evening. Was wondering about the whole idea of marriage and proposing and setting a new family with another person.

Went home and watched the movie trailer for a chinese film Love Cuts, featuring Zoe Tay. Its abt this married woman and her family, the mundaness of the life they lead, the issues and problems she faces as a mother and a wife, and then finally, she discovers she has breast cancer. This new illness in her takes the family for a roller coaster ride of emotions.

I sound like I've completed watching the show. But here's what I think: Everything you need to know is in the trailer itself. Ha!

Okay. Back to my thoughts about marriage. It did get me. I wondered all possibilities of after wedding. Recently a new friend and I have been discussing about faithfulness in marriage. So we were just wondering how scary a thought it is that this other person you just gave your entire life to, living together and sleeping together, making plans together, has this some other person who is sharing another life with. Its just gross.

Or what if your spouse falls indefinitely sick. Or he/she dies. You cant just change another spouse halfway through.

This is the thing. Marriage is committment. They gel together. Through sickness and health, for life and death. Through it all. This other person is no longer another person, but one with you. Not two halves to make a whole, but two wholes becoming one. Everything about that person is exchanged with you.

To illustrate the importance of this, I will quote a friend.

Me: How important will your wife be to you?
Him: Let me just put it this way, "If both your wife and your mother were to be drowning, and you could only save one, who would you save?"
Me: So who would you save?
Him: I'm sorry, but I would save my wife. Because my wife and I are one. If she dies, I become incomplete.

WAH. There you go. Committment.

But God is so good. He is our Bridegroom, and the church is His bride. We exhange all of ourselves with all of Him. He is ever faithful, even when we are faithless, even when we do things that grieve Him, He never leaves us. Sun, moon and stars will die away, but God always remains.

It is just so comforting to know that you have a Bridegroom who is never-changing, the same yesterday today and forever more. One that endures through eternity.

So so comforting.

As His bride, I wonder if we are being a good bride. Are we true and faithful to Him. Or are the times we give ourselves to sin countless? Repent and turn from our ways. For God, the Husband, is faithful and just to forgive us of our unrighteousness.

I love my Husband.